MUD AND DUST

From a dust,
formed a mud
Cherished by a drop of mist

A formed mud
came from a dust
Unknown end point will reign

From dust to mud
Formed mud to dust
Air is exhales and inhaled
Eyelids closes and opened
Life ands and rebirth took place

SCARLET MYSTERY

Tic, tac, toe, tic, tac, toe
As I retreat on my bed at night
tic, tac, toe
And close my eyes, as mother turn off the light
tic, tac, toe
Eternity of crescent moon comes conveying…
tic, tac, toe…sleep sound at night

Walking down the path
tic, tac, toe
Come after someone
In the dark…
tic, tac, toe
…road…
Where no light exist
tic, tac, toe
And no echo breathe





Glimpse back from where I came from
tic, tac, toe
Tired walk I felt
tic, tac, toe
search where I was going to
A man… tic, tac, toe
…I was following is gone!

Tic, tac…tic, tac, tic, tac, toe
tic, tac, tic, tac, tic, tac, toe
I’m in tension… tic, tac
Someone whisper my name, right through my ear…
tic, tac, tic, tac
A man with a velvet face, reaching for my palm
tic, tac, tic, tac, tic, tac, toe
As I feel his velvet palm, the entire star gazes into his eyes…
And one… tic, tac…click, I perceive a light
Surrounds the entire space…






Tic, tac, tac, tac, toe, toe, toe
Tic, tic, taka tac, toe, toe, toe
Opened my eyes, indigo…tiki tic…cast all over the space
Then my knees knelt…taka tac…down, as I cover my ears
And in one flash a vermillion dances around…
Tiki, tic, taka, tac…eager to ash my soul,
Tic, tic, shattered my bones,
Tac, tac, strangled my clothes
Toe, toe, unto my flesh

Tic, tic, tic, tic, tic, tac, toe
Tic, tic, tic, tic, tic, tac, toe
I cried!
Shout!
And moan! This vicious pain
That tattered my being!

Tic, tic, tic, tac, tac, tac, toe
I screamed and woke up!
Tiki, tic, taka, tac, toe, toe, toe… up and down…
And scarlet drops unto my mysterious palm.

The sinner

I was lost
because I choose
to be lost
I lie to my love one's
I stabbed my
mother's womb
I rapes my humaness
And I buried and
devastated the
divine power
within me

I am a celebrity
who chased by
the authorities
Used different tounges,
race and faces
But through all
the insane blood
that covers my
whole identity
I was the lost
one among the
ninety nine sheep
And I'm still a
sheep sho wants
to be found by
my shepherd

Salvation

In your bare hands, I awake in calm
After your blood washes my hand from the
stain of mud
Then, my vision cleared, my being taken out from
the gulf of tears
Now, I could lay myself to sleep
In your arms, my misery fades away

SHORT STORY: Have you seen my shadow?

“Do you know the story about the firefly that lightens the lake of Bulayculay when the goddess of dew took a bath every night?” Trina asked her older sister Diana. They are at the river bank that afternoon, which is the favorite place of both of them where they used to swim, play, chat, and do whatever they want. But now, they used to be comfortable lying on the river bank and letting their feet be caressed by the cold water of the flowing river.
“No, I don’t, would you bother telling me?” Diana answered with a dizzy voice. It was a good weather, the sky is full of cotton clouds and it’s already three thirty in the afternoon that’s why it’s very comfortable to sleep. Diana’s eyes can’t fight the urge of sleeping even Trina is busy telling a story. Then, after a minute, Diana can’t help to close her eyes.
“Then, the firefly evolved into a handsome man after he had sipped a tear of a golden lotus that blooms at the river bank. Do you know what happened next?” she asked her older sister and smiled when she realized that Diana was in her deep sleep. She kissed Diana in the cheeks, embraced her and whispered
“I love you so much, Ate” then she laid beside her and fell asleep.

“Trina, baby, you seemed so sad lately. What happened? Do the art workshop pressures you? Does somebody bully you at school?” Mrs. Victorio worriedly asked Trina.
“Baby, please, talk to us” added Mr. Victorio, Trina just smiled simply.
“Mom, Dad, I’m happy today” she said proudly.
“I’m glad you are” Mr. Victorio said.
“Baby, where are you since yesterday? I and your Dad were so worried about you. We’ve been looking for you everywhere but we couldn’t find you. Wait, did you cry? Your eyes seemed so deep” Mrs. Victorio was asked her daughter.
“No, Mom, like what I’ve said. I’m happy, I was just a little pressured on my masterpiece. About yesterday, I just find some place to work with it” she explained seriously between her chews. She really needs to eat for her to have more energy after she skipped her dinner yesterday night she really had to eat until her stomach is full.
“Mom, Dad, I have to go now” Trina said after she had finished eating the food in her plate.
“Wait, where are you going? You don’t have class today, it’s Saturday, remember” said Mr. Victorio.
“Mom, Dad, I have to find a place for my masterpiece” she reasoned.
“But I thought you already finished your masterpiece”
“Not yet Dad, my last touches was not yet enough” Trina said.
“Bye, Mom! Bye, Dad!” she shouted while she hurriedly get out of the house.
“Okey, Dear, take care!” her Mom shouted.
“Hi, good morning, may I speak to Jenny?” Trina is in the park, she thought to call Jenny at the telephone booth near the park.
“This is Jenny, speaking?”
“Hi, it’s Trina. I can’t think of a thing to do now. So I thought maybe you could come with me in a picnic. If that’s fine with you and if you’re not busy today. Where will that be? What time?”
“It’s about 3:30 p.m. I’ll just pick you up infront of your house at 2:00 p.m. sharp”
“Okey, wait can Alfred join us” Jenny asked.
“Of course, he could” Trina said grinning.
“IT WILL BE TWO BIRDS HIT WITH THE ONE STONE” Trina said at herself.
“Okey, let’s meet later, bye” Trina said sweetly.

She headed home and prepared her picnic basket. She passed at the backdoor so nobody can see her. She went straight at the Bulayculay River and hid the picnic basket at the bushes. Then, she waited for 2:00 to pick Jenny and Alfred in Jenny’s residence.
“Hi” Trina greeted Jenny and Alfred.
“Where’s the picnic basket?” Jenny asked.
“I left it there” Trina answered.
“Here, I’ve brought some snacks “Alfred gave it to Trina.
“Thanks, by the way, bring your bicycle because the place seemed a little bit far for both of you” Trina reminded.
“Okey, this sounds adventure” Alfred said.
“YES, IT WILL BE AN ADVENTURE” Trina said it to herself.
At the river Bulayculay they ate, chatted, and swam.
“Jen, I’m getting out of the water” Alfred said.
“Okey” Jen answered
“Trina, c’mon, let’s go over there” Jenny said to Trina. Trina just followed Jenny.
“This part is deep “Jenny said
“Let’s dive into it” Jenny suggested. They went to the highest part of that area. Jenny was just about to dive in when someone pushed her, to her shock that she can’t swim. The sky was dark and later on the clouds started to cry, Jenny tried hard to move her arms and legs but she couldn’t. Trina saw this thing and she was just standing there without any reaction she saw how Jenny waved her hand while tossing up and down into the water. And she also heard how Jenny called for help.
“MAYBE THE GIRL GOT CRAMPS” she said at herself. The rain was getting terrible, the river flows become stronger. When she tossed again above the water she saw Trina standing on the river bank and without any reaction.
“Trina, help!” Trina heard it and she immediately responded.
“Wait! I’ll call Alfred because I don’t know how to swim!” then she came hurriedly at Alfred. They went back immediately. When Alfred saw Jenny he dived immediately in the water. But when he held Jenny the stronger flow of the river came and washed Alfred and Jenny away. Trina was still standing there and the rain was getting worst together with it was a thunder and lightning. She came home silently, nobody noticed her because she passed by the backdoor. She was very wet and came home late at night. Even though, she heard the worried voices of her parents in the living room who was waiting for her. She didn’t mind it and went upstairs to the attic. There she had changed her wet clothes into a nightgown and laid silently into the bed. She remembered the past days before closing her eyes.
Trina was in the attic, she’s always gone there, after school, every time she’s happy, sad or doubtful…there, she could find her inner self completely and everything will be okey. Now, she’s there again, she’s been crying for a whole day and she didn’t get out of that room.
“Ate that was the time I saw you very happy. I thought your just okey. I never thought that you’ll cry. Ate, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry Ate---“she said between her sobs. She was at the corner of the room that was half dimmed because she doesn’t open the windows and turn on the lights. She sitting with her knees curled infront of her breast and looking at her sobbing reflection at the mirror.
“Ate please, please stop crying. I don’t want to see you cry” she sobbed silently at the attic.






Diana is happy today because she had seen Alfred. Alfred is a senior student from 4C It happened that she saw him at the corridor and she’s happy, even she just looks at him from a distance.
“Hey!” Jenny said that frightened Diana.
“What makes you interested looking there?” Jenny asked.
“Oh, nothing” then Dian blushed.
“Oh, you’re looking at Alfred, right?” Jenny said with a grin.
“Am I right?” she asked again.
“Y-yes” she admits shyly.
“Well, I have go at the library for a while” Jenny said with a teasing smile.
The night came, Trina is lying beside her sister at Diana’s room.
“Ate, you look so happy today?” asked Trina
“It’s because I saw Alfred” said Diana with a smile.
“So, what happened?” asked Trina.
“Nothing”, he just smiled at me” she said simply.
It was a rainy month of August when her Ate Diana knew Jenny. According to Diana’s story she recognized Jenny as one of her classmate but they didn’t have a chance to talk. Then, the rainy day had come, Diana is on the corridor waiting for the innocent drops to stop from falling. In the silence of the cold breeze, Jenny approach her with a cheerful smile.
“Hi there!” greeted Jenny
“You’re also in the 3D class?” asked Jenny.
“Yes” she replied with a smile.
“I was wondering you don’t also have any umbrella right?” Jenny asked again.
“Yes and I think you and me is in the same situation” said Diana with a friendly tone.
Then, minute later they both feel comfortable with each other and had a wonderful talk.
“Wait, feels like the rain doesn’t want to stop” Jenny said. And they looked at the wonderful rain that showered and created music over the roofs.
“Looks like the rain is playing look at them. Maybe the drops of the rain jumps from the clouds just like they do in the sky diving, then they slide in the roofs and that roll together with their friends” Diana said out of curiosity.
“Aha1” I have an idea!” said Jenny.
“Let’s play with the rain!” she said, then she quickly grabbed Diana’s hand and they both danced sang and chatted in the middle of the drops of crystals their way home.
“That was the first time she went home wet but I can see she’s happy to be with Jenny. But I know she will be much happier if she’ll see Jenny now… She’ll be much happier” she whispered grinning while she makes her final touches in the picture of the girl that she’s doing. Then, after that she placed it together with her other sketches and she attached it on the wall beside her bed.






The people in the Victoria’s residence were so worried about Trina. It was past midnight but still Trina didn’t come home. They wanted to report it to the authorities when suddenly someone knocked at the door. It was the police officers and they’re searching for Trina. The couple had told the police about missing Trina. And the police officers had stated their mission in going at Victorio’s house.
“We want to clear things because Alfred Domingo and Jenna Laurence were seen at the different part of river Bulayculay’s river bank. They have bruisers and wounds. Their parents told us that the last person they’re with is Trina Victorio. And we thought that the she’s here right now, Mr. Domingo said that he was drown when when he tried to save Ms. Laurence is still unconscious and Mr. Domingo don’t have any idea what had happened before he arrived to saved Ms. Laurence” the leader of the police officers had explained.
“You mean, you’re accusing my child?!” Mrs. Victorio asked sarcasticly.
“No, ma’am, the reason why we have to find her is to clear some things” the police officer said.
“Okey, we will help you clear this thing, but help us find my daughter” Mrs. Victorio said with her sob.
The time passed and it’s already 5:00 a.m. but they didn’t see Trina they already turned the whole house upside down but--- but there is still one part of the house which they haven’t checked yet. The attic! They went straight into the attic and opened it’s door with the used of the key. Mr. Victorio had inserted the key on the doorknob “click” they are all breathless when the door flew open. Inside, the attic room is half-dimmed. The old junk is neatly put at the space beside the wall. And the whole surroundings is full of canvas that has a portrait of unidentified girl that looks like Trina but older than HER. At the attic floor a soul is lying with a blanket rolled on its body. She looks so innocent and a little dirty. Her face had a dried tear that fell from her eyes. And she’s embracing a frame with a portrait of an unidentified girl.
“My child” Mrs. Victorio embrace her daughter so tight that waked Trina.
“Mom? Dad?” she asked in a sleepy voice.
“Why you didn’t bother to tell us that you’re just sleeping here?” her father told her.
“I’m so sorry” Trina said.
“Let’s go downstairs now and have our breakfast” Mrs. Victorio said relieved.
On the table, Mrs. Victorio had told Trina about the thing that had happened to Jenny and Alfred. When Trina heard it she became silent. Mr. and Mrs. Victorio thought that maybe Trina is sad. Then, Trina asked her mom to come with her at the hospital because she wanted to see Jenny and Alfred.
At the hospital she saw Jenny. She is still lying on the bed and still unconscious. She just stayed there a minute then, she went to Alfred’s room. When she went there, she saw him awaken. He was still lying on the bed and can’t move easily because of his painful body. When Trina came in, Alfred’s mom and her mom go outside to give them time to talk.
“Hi” Trina greeted Alfred.
“Hi” He answered back. Trina sat beside Alfred’s bed.
“I’m sorry I can’t help the two of you” Trina said sincerely.
‘”It’s just fine. We knew that you don’t know how to swim you just shouldn’t have gone there” Alfred said.
“Anyway, what happened before I go there to save Jenny?” Alfred said. Trina told everything except the thing that she pushed Jenny and that she just look at the drowning Jenny before she get Alfred’s help.
“Anyway, I want to show you something that could make you feel well”, Trina said. Then, she gets a frame inside her bag and showed it to Alfred.
“What can you say? It looks like exactly as she looks right?” Trina said gladly.
“Ah, well, she’s beautiful. Well, it’s beautiful. It looks like as if it is existing” Alfred said with a smile. Trina became mad
“LOOKS LIKE AS IF IT WAS EXISTING?!” it explodes into her mind and the idea flows into her veins that makes her erupt!
“Of course, she does exist!” Trina had said in a high tone.
“Didn’t you recognize her? She’s my Ate Diana! She’s your girlfriend!” Trina said who start to sob.
“But I haven’t seen her, my girlfriend is Jenny and I don’t know that you have an older sister” Alfred said in a low voice.
“How could you do this to her?!” she said sobbing.
Then, Trina look at the door
“Ate---?” she asked between her sobs. Out of curiosity, Alfred also looked at the door. He was confused on what’s happening.
“Please, stop this Trina”, Trina said sobbing and her head turned at the left side as if she is talking to someone.
“No, Ate! You see? Your beloved Alfred denied you. And your best friend Jenny had betrayed you. You should have a revenge for making you cry! And hurting you! I will do the revenge for you!” Trina said these things hysterically. Because of the scene Alfred was afraid and confused and all he could do was to watch the scene while it still goes on.
“No, Trina, It wasn’t their fault” she said when she turned her face at the left side. After that, Trina had covered her face with her palm and cry. Alfred is breathless he doesn’t have any idea on what will happen next. He was trembling and in the midst of his confusion he clarifies that Trina is a psychotic. Trina had lifted her head once again and looked at Alfred. He felt like dying in the way Trina looks.
“You and Jenny shouldn’t be alive anymore! Now, you’re the reason why Ate Diana doesn’t have any love for me! You shouldn’t be alive! You should die!” after saying this Trina strangle Alfred’s neck with her one hand.
“Die! Die! Die!” she screamed. Then suddenly, the door flew opened the people saw this scene were shocked. The nurse and Mrs. Victorio tried to control the hysterical Trina who wanted to strangle Alfred that had fainted because of his fear in Trina. Later on, the doctor came together with a nurse who injected a dosage of injection for her to be able to sleep. The doctor checks on Alfred and says that he had just fainted. With a blurred sight, Trina saw her ate crying. Before she closed her eyes she said
“Ate---“softly, then, the frame that she’d been holding fell into the floor and the glass was broken into pieces. And the truth had explode in their minds and flowed into their bloods.





A month later, Trina had stopped going to school. Even it’s hard for Mr. and Mrs. Victorio to do those thing they still sent Trina to a Mental Hospital to cure her. They burned Trina’s entire portrait of her imaginary Ate Diana and locked up the attic. The doctor said it will be the best not to remember the past. Now, it’s 3:00 p.m. and it’s time for the patient’s to roam around the garden of the hospital. Trina is sitting in a seesaw, she get a paper that is folded in her pocket.
“Please, Promise me you won’t leave me” she said while looking at the paper.
“Yes, I promise I won’t” her Ate Diana said. They smiled at each other and continue cherishing the breeze of the cold wind while looking at the cotton cloud sky. And to Trina’s mind next month will be exciting because of the playing drops of rain.


END